Missing you...

My lil' sweetheart,

Mummy's maternity leave is ending very soon... Will you miss mummy when mummy goes back to work? Probably not.. But mummy will definitely miss you lots and lots and lots...

Before you were born, mummy had always wanted to be a stay-at-home mum.. Doing housework, taking care of you and daddy, watching TV, taking occasional naps..etc... But! Things changed after you came into our lives... Being a stay-at-home mum didn't turn out to be as easy as how mummy had thought it to be...

Confinement month was a torture... Not only was mummy confined at home, there were lots of restrictions to bear in mind too.. And that was also the time when mummy had to keep worrying about whether you are eating and poo-ing enough.. Whether your jaundice is getting better... Yet, that period of time was also when you were at your best behaviour..

After the 1st month, things were only starting to get better.. No more confinement.. no more restrictions.. Darling's health was given the all clear... But, that also signified the start of another nightmare.. The lil' devil in our princess was beginning to creep out!

Sometimes you got so naughty that mummy thought to myself,"I don't want to be a stay-at-home mum anymore! Can't wait to get back to work!"... That's probably the 1st time since mummy entered the workforce that mummy showed such 'enthusiasm' at going back to work!



Looking after you day after day, mummy had no time of my own at all.. There were days when mummy really yearned to get out of the house to get some fresh air and quiet time... Yet, when mummy really did get a chance to go out without you, mummy's heart and mind was always with you... Missing you so much.. Always wondering how my lil' darling is doing.. whether darling has had your milk.. behaving or not...etc.. Mummy knew then that going back to work isn't going to be easy for me...

And mummy knows daddy can't put you out of his mind too.. Cos daddy always sms mummy "Tell chubby daddy loves her", when daddy's at work... =)

2 more weeks left, darling... And then mummy's time with you will be greatly reduced becos mummy has to spend most of my waking hours at work... Even though you are soundly asleep close by mummy's side right now, mummy's already beginning to miss you..

A while ago, your grandma called mummy and said you could stay over tonight... Though mummy's still feeling tired from looking after you last night, there's this reluctance tugging at me.. Mummy can't bear to leave your side... Yet, we've got to let you get used to staying over there and for your grandparents to get to know your night habits. For my lil' darling will be staying over for several nights each week when mummy returns to work.

My lil' sweetheart, though daddy and mummy sometimes say you are a naughty girl... We really love you a lot... No matter where we are, no matter how naughty you become, we will always miss you lots and love you so... Cos you are our most precious, sweet lil' angel... =)